November 2017

CHRISTMAS FESTIVE

It's time to feel festive, people! Christmas eve is in less than a month, and I've already been embracing it on various social media, as you might've seen. I don't really like Christmas eve, to be honest. And yes I know, there's nothing wrong with that either. I mean, I like the feeling of Christmas and the cozy feeling of peace I get, especially when looking at various shopping windows in inner Stockholm. I can walk around all stores in the city for hours every hour of December, and embrace the feeling over a hot christmas chocolate. That's nice, but something's that's not nice is what Christmas itself is.

To get on track my past Christmas eves have not been so great due to personal reasons. So many people I feel have hurt me on that very day, over and over again, year after year, and I'm tired of it. Sick and tired of being hurt, and having my heart crossed. I feel like I need a break from celebrating it that very day. Or that day it self, I mean.

I know so many out there personally that feel me, that also feel like I do, that are tired of Christmas and everything it stands for, and if you feel so too I don't blame you. You also have reasons and they matter as well.

Christmas is supposed to be a fun holiday with much love and caring, and yes, I do get that, so I'm very grateful for that that very day as well. It's not like I'm hating all of it. It's just that some parts of me feel unhappy that day due to people. People that used to be familiar faces of friends. 

And when it comes to how other people experience Christmas eve we don't know. It's not that they'll say it, or do anything about it either. We're not in control of them the slightest. We're not them and they're not us. We can't change, or switch up their bad holidays and turn them into magical paradises in the matter of seconds, or at all even. 

I don't know what I'm writing, or thinking at this point. Am I happy about Christmas, or not? Can I just decide? NO. I don't have to, and so don't you. 

I have absolutely no structure of this post at all, and just to get a message out of this I want to say that it's okay to feel unhappy about Christmas. It's 100% okay, because it's your life. A tip from me is just to accept your situation and change it. You can do it, and if you can't do it alone, talk to friends, family, at least someone you trust, and ask them for help. You're so strong, I know you can make it. 

Always yours,

Zeventine <3

Time to be positive

As you might know I've behaved a lil' weird lately, and it has been like that because of my negative state of mind. Due to personal reasons I haven't really felt inspired and I have only been bringing myself down. To fix that I want to be more positive again. I am not here to show off my bad side, I am here to inspire you guys because I love you. That's what I'm all about and that's what I always will be about.

I'm writing this little post right now to try and change things, but I can't change my past. Instead I'm going to correct my future, even though it might not be easy. I hope everyone of you is having a great end of the weekend.

Love, Zevs <3

HATE LOVE

What the h*ll is love anyways?

A feeling? A form of expression of how much someone means to you?

No! Not to me. 

You see, the past months I've stood out with a lot. And I mean, a lot. From rumors reaching tens of thousands of people to having to fear for my life due to harassments, I've had enough with this bullsh*t. 

What I mean is that I don't care about love anymore. The people I once trusted have all let me down and the person I thought I loved turned out to be my worst nightmare. Really. 

The moral of this quick little update is that you should never catch feelings for a person before the first 3-6 months of getting to know them. It's actually then their real personality is showing, and I don't want you, my cute little ''Z babies'' to be hurt. You deserve all the best.

If you don't follow me on the app Shazam already you totally should. Search up Zeventine in the app and click follow. It's where I post the music I listen to and write shorter advice, since I know you guys can be as confused in life as I can be sometimes. Trust me, it happens.